Softball season

My holidays are filled with softball and going out with friends. I got assignments to do but because I was too lazy and not sure of how to do so I just put it aside and miraclely (Is there this word? LOL) hope that its done by itself hahaha. Furthermore, Anthony got CHICKENPOX zzzz, how to do? Sean and me was so busy with our CCAs. But from tmr onwards, I really need to start doing already. Kinda worried for it cause I really have no idea about this module arghhh.

Allright so, we had slowpitch during the weekends! It's at anchor vale, sengkang area. Its so far and it took me like around 1hr 45min to reached. The journey is even more tiring than playing in the field.

This year slowpitch was so good so far! We lose games, we won games. I don't know how to describe this feeling but its like even though the seniors like Alvin, Hausan they all are not playing with us, we still managed to did it quite well! With all the beginning players such as Jowell, Chong wee, Zhong han they all, we could play to this standard, I really think its not bad already.

And its like everyone is really putting efforts in playing whatever positions they are playing. Not like last year, where I felt that I am only there in the field because they MUST have 3 girls inside so its like useless me in the field being a vase lol. Felt really good together with our own badge of years 2! Cheering was good, I likeee it this way hehe. :D

Jinhan, Lilin, Boo and me

I got a sad news to share. My so called " EYECANDY OR CRUSH " has girlfriend already.. Surprisely, I don't feel as heavy as I thought I would. I feel upset but not really to the extend that I feel moody for the whole day. I am still able to watch shows and laugh my heart out. I just feel so expected and in a way, very curious about his girlfriend and how they get together. Now I somehow know about their story which I guess it myself because I went to stalk and hmm pile up all the bit and pieces of information myself and make up a story LOL, I feel so different. Its like I totally see him as a different person already.

I don't know what should I say to myself because I feel that I am super realistic. Once I know he has a girlfriend, my thinking of him change drastically. I'm not exaggerating but its like the next day when he talk to me all these, I don't feel awkward. I don't feel that " ohhh so happy he talk to me " feeling or that heartbeat thump thump feeling. All I know is whenever he starts to talk to me, my mind will be floating with thoughts like " He got a gf now, so stop yourself for being so gaga over him. "

I feel that somehow its a good thing for me to feel this way cause I don't feel so awkward anymore and I will stop creating scenes in my mind when he talk to me and its more comfortable this way because I know its impossible for us to get any closer so I'm like soooo being myself when he talk to me and I not as shy anymore. So I suppose.. this is a good thing for me right? But I still think he's good looking la, still my ideal type la hehe.

Just wondering, am I being too optimistic or am I just feeling hopeless so not giving a damn anymore cause I know its impossible? Should I even be feeling regretful cause I should make my confession to him first? But one thing for sure, there's definitely something good that he thinks about me. This can't goes wrong because this instinct is too strong HAHAHA. I so confidence hor LOL. But whatever it is, I am still going to confess to him during year 3 that he HAD once been my eyecandy for these 3 years. Not going to go any further but just write " Thanks for being my EYECANDY for these 3 years. "

End of story.