Is it worth my time, my money in the end? 

The feeling of defeat from my constantly underwhelming results hasn't faded away and it feels like it's here to stay..How demoralizing it is when you tried multiple times but you still failed to get it. Maybe I'm just not cut out for this. I swear, I tried my hardest but it's just not within my capacity. My mind been pondering over the other options, not like I could control it. All I could say is, quitting is an option now. 

Crying myself to sleep cause I'm at the state of I REALLY FUCKING DONT KNOW HOW TO HANDLE ANYMORE.. Call me weak, lousy, spoilt or whatever, I don't care.. I just don't wanna do this anymore..