To the ones I loved and didn't show it enough

Got back my maths result. I just passed my paper, 50/100 phew! I'm the lowest in class which is expected hahaha, in fact I think I'm the lowest in the whole cohort because everyone scores damn well for it. Its ok because I kinda expected it and Ms Lee is so nice, so wonderful! I don't think I'll be able to pass my paper if she didn't help me pulled up my marks. She really helped me a lot to give me a pass, at least. I'm so thankful to her and she knows I'm one of the few who do not have A maths background in class, whenever I don't understand any topics, she will just be patient and guide me along. You tell me, where to find this kind of lecturer in poly? 

But hen sian can't deny the fact that although I know I need to work harder, I feel a litttle demoralized and lazy because it seems like my efforts will not be paid off. But thats not the way to think, I know.. so I need to be more positive behz hai. Maths maths maths, you're such a burden to me. :(

Busy busy but we must also have fun right? :)

My weekends was good! Went town to get Yi xuan birthday present with my brothers and have so much fun just slacking around although the weather was so hot!

Today was a stay home Sunday. I did my part for my ELAW report yeahz I thought I couldn't do it but turn out, everything works quite well for me :) and did some maths, as usual feeling demoralized again hahaha. Dozed off while watching running man! You know, so happy eh I got some time to watch running man and even sleep! Went for a run in the night and someone gave me a surprise by running all the way from the gym to find me. Hahaha! Thank god I haven't go home yet so it was a successful mini surprise kekeke! ^^

Thats us saying hello! :)

Just wondering, is a simple " Thank you " too much to ask for? I mean... I really don't mind being the one planning stuffs cause if its make everyone happy, why not. But sometimes I really wish people could just say thank you to me and tell me they appreciate my efforts, sincerely. It would really made my day.. I think.. I shouldn't feel this way right because its not good for me to think this way because friends don't expect any return from one another right? I think I'm being quite bad for thinking this way which is so stupid -o- But hai I don't know whats making me sad but its just hen sian bah!

I don't wanna do anything to salvage any friendships anymore because its seems like there's no point for me in doing it. Its like people expect me to do it because they feel that I'm the only one who can do it but then.. there's nothing I can do about it if nobody want to reciprocate to it. I feel so dumb. Its like nobody want me to do it but why I am being so busybody to go and try to make everything better when people don't even care? And why am I getting so affected by it when it isn't me to begin with? I really feel so stupid for letting things to bothered me so much. Nobody is forcing me to do it then why am I trying so hard? I guess I should really just leave things aside and let it be. I'm not angry or pissed with my friends, I just upset at myself. I just feel angry at myself for being a busybody. I feel so dumb for letting it affect me and my friendships. 

I don't think I should do anything anymore because I don't really have any rights to say anything. Ok I'm talking as though I'm the one being in the situation -o- wah lao but arghh whatever. I shall just let it be and if it makes everyone happier in this way, so be it. At the end of the day, I just want everyone to be happy. But well.. just to say, if one day things are gonna get better, I'll still be there for everyone who need me there. 

And to end off, tadaaaa my Sunday end up in a sweet sweet note because of you, we spent a short 30 min together but hen kai xin! ^.>

OK LET'S BATTERY IT UP FOR THE NEXT WEEK!!! yes u can do it velle so tired also must do lo if not who do for you right? hai la mak