Today was scary, really scary omfg can I nearly fainted. I went to donate blood today and yeah, its my 3rd time there and everything seems normal. Just that this time round, the person poke the needle wrongly and causes my arm to have ugly bruises but well I didn't blame him or what cause I'm nice and thats really ok wahahaha. 

Omw back home, I was feeling alittle nauseous because I guess the bruise on my hand was really painful and the bandage isn't helping at all because it's so tight and its making me feel so miserable. I was complaining to Hui Juan that it was so tight that I'm gonna die, she helped me loosen it abit and allright, its a little better but still ...nvm since I'm going home already.

And damn sian, I'm always going home during the peak hours and the lrt is freaking flooded and I was standing all the way to the back, leaning against the door with so many heads infront of me. I was feeling pretty allright initially, but when I reached teck whye station, I start to feel nauseous again but I told myself I reaching home so I should just tahan. BUT OMFG, otw from teck whye to phoneix, I literally felt myself dying. I'm having difficulty breathing and its not helping at all with the train being so packed and cramped and I'm standing at the very back which makes me super uncomfortable because I feel like I don't have any oxygen at all and the bloody lady infront of me just keep flapping her hair right infront of me >.< I was so giddy at that moment and I couldn't tahan anymore, I just EXCUSE ME with my last leap of strength and chiong outside to sit down. The moment I sat down, all the giddiness and shortage of breathing start attacking me. I'm having such a hard time trying to calm myself down and not looking like an idiot because I know so many people is looking at me but I can't help it but to support my head with my arms and start spinning around like an idiot lol. I was breaking down in cold sweat and I don't know how to stop it. I was feeling so miserable and terrible at that moment, I thought I'm gonna die like serious because I've never encounter this before. I didn't even know my water bottle topple down and spill all the way to my bag. I can't be bothered anyway. I'm just so afraid that I'm going to die and nobody is there to save me and I'm trying so hard to calm myself down and chase away all the giddiness.

Thank god, xy came down to find me which I told him its okay, I'm really fine but he came all the way to find me and he perspire so much. I feel so guilty but I've to admit, I'm in need of someone at that v moment because I really don't know how to save myself. And its pretty scary to hear the ambulance siren when I was feeling giddy. For a moment, I thought xy went to call ambulance lol and I really start to question myself if I'm gonna die today lol.... 

I know I sounds so stupid because its just a going to faint incident but it still freaks me out a lot because its just scary to encounter this alone lol.. I really thought I was not going to survive and going to die today wtf seriously. I'm feeling better now but my head is still spinning, I can't follow my schedule and study tonight. I need to get enough rest wtf fml. Since when did I became so weak? Sorry for letting people I love worry about me, I hope I'll never encounter this again and yeah thank god I got this super cute boyboy that is always there to protect me WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. 

anyway...what if i really die today siaz and thank god, that ambulance wasn't for me wtf